The Finesse

Health Log

– I unfortunately haven’t prioritized routinely going to the gym this year/month because of how my schedule has been a bit whacky. I’m trying to get myself back into form.
– Despite this, I was able to do a handstand push-up against the wall! I was shocked. I don’t think I went low enough, but with time, it should come. It’s so weird because I haven’t been practicing handstands consistently, but I felt so much stronger in my arm support. I still can’t do a handstand without wall support, however.
– It feels so good doing meal prep again (I stopped during the holiday season out of laziness and non-necessity). I feel like I’ve really perfected my meals and there’s less and less variation now that I know how to properly make each meal. And now that I feel that way, it may be a perfect time to try new things. I’m definitely planning to cook a lot more different vegan meals, so hopefully I can incorporate the convenient/easy ones for lunch.

Independence Log

– My parents brought up the fact that we’re moving and I found this an opportune time to discuss paying rent. I’ve been thinking about this a lot since I’ve started serious budgeting and I thought it’d be a good idea to pay rent to really see if I can live properly and to give back to my parents. Of course, they rejected this notion, which was partially expected. I’m planning on bringing this up continuously until they just take my money, so I’m moving the rent money I’ve budgeted to pay them monthly into a savings account and letting it accumulate out of range, as if it’s not mine anymore.
– Speaking of my parents moving, I think this time it’s more serious, like we’re actually moving. I’m hesitant to discuss it further as I don’t really know the timeline, nor do I want to know. I’ll just let it be a bittersweet surprise. Still debating if I should just move out when they move though.
– I’ve been looking into investing and starting a retirement account and it’s all very scary and confusing, so there’s that.

Connection Log

– I spent NYE alone, which is how I guess I planned it, but in the end, half of me felt so utterly lonely. A majority of the time, I like being alone, but then some days, it just hits me. I didn’t even watch the countdown because I forgot we don’t have TV anymore. It was an odd feeling, one that really made me rather introspective.
– Luckily, my sister’s dog has moved back home (temporarily?) and it’s been so fun having her around. It really helps with the loneliness.
– My mom mentioned in passing that she wanted to set me up with her friend’s daughter. I was panicking in my head, but luckily I was watching a movie, so I pretended I wasn’t listening and she hasn’t brought it up again. I’m cool and actually like going on blind dates, but what startled me was the fact that they brought this up. My parents, who didn’t want me dating in college because they wanted me to focus on my future. My parents, who, after college, still wanted me not to date because I had to focus on my future. It’s all good though because that meant I didn’t have to introduce them to girls I was dating and we never needed to breach the subject matter. So that’s why my life flashed before my eyes.
– I’m trying to have more routine hangouts with people. For instance, playing D&D and Pandemic Legacy regularly creates hangouts virtually on their own, without much effort to gather people. It’s nice to have hangouts like this because it reminds me to hang out with people and not let too much time go by before seeing friends. Of course, this isn’t always the case, so I’m trying to be a lot more proactive in texting people and prioritizing meeting up with them.

Experience Log

– I ordered MoviePass from Costco, finally. It took some time and a lot of hesitation and to be honest, I’m still pretty pre-anxious about what’s going to happen in a year from now when I try to cancel. That hassle is already making me nervous. Also, just waiting around for the card to come was nerve-wracking. I just felt like so much could go wrong because of all the horror stories I heard. Nonetheless, this was all pushed aside because of my desire to go to the movies more often. I’m totally comfortable going by myself too, so it’ll be a nice change of pace. Plus, it’s one of my goals to take myself out on more dates anyway. I’ve also been trying to catch all of the 2017 movies I missed since I didn’t go to the movies much. Because of the MoviePass, I may be veering back into “watch anything” territory, instead of my “pick and choose” mentality. I guess I do have the time (or at least, perspective-wise, I should make time for myself and my hobbies, movie-watching being one of them).
– Overall, my first experience using MoviePass was outstanding. The theater by my house filled their rooms with all reclining, plush, and reserved seats, which was a nice surprise. There wasn’t an issue using it
– I’ve been making more lists lately. Lists of important things, lists of useless things. I just want to be prepared when someone asks me: “What’s your top 10 movies ever? Go!” and I’ll be ready this time.
– I also wanted to just organize my thoughts coming into the new year with a fresh mind. Getting back into the swing of things, as it were. They say we shouldn’t have any zero days, but I had basically 14 zero days in a row at the end of last year, so…yeah. But anyway, I’ve been working on a lot of fun, different things, which I feel like has really divided my time improperly and hasn’t allowed me to flow as I continuously switch hobbies, allocating certain times to certain hobbies each day. I may have to rethink this, but for now, it’s alright.
– In retrospect, holistically, I feel like I’ve been wasting my time this month, or rather, I’ve been using my time unwisely, prioritizing things incorrectly. There’s been a lack of motivation to “get it in gear” after the new year arrived. This might also be stemming from the fact that I don’t have anything urgent I need to do, so the relaxation is making me question myself and giving me anxiety. It might also just feel like I’m not necessarily accomplishing anything because I’m partially starting many things instead of finishing. It’s probably just all in my head.

Signal Boost

– Thor: Ragnarok (2017). My most anticipated film of 2017 and I can’t believe I missed its theatrical run (I thought my MoviePass would be here sooner but I miscalculated). Anyway, it did not disappoint. I love all the promotional material, I love Taika Waititi, I love Chris Hemsworth, I love not having Jane Foster, everything was excellent. Favorite movie of the MCU? Just may be. #TeamThor
– Star Wars: The Last Jedi (2017). I am not a fan of the series, but I did really like Rogue One…a lot. So I thought I’d watch this anyway. It wasn’t bad and I liked it much better than Episode VII. So many cute creatures! I just find these movies so derivative. I can appreciate that these movies are for a new generation, but why can’t they just make it a new story line? It’s just a repeat of the same old thing…Jedi vs. evil people and there’s no hope in the galaxy blah blah blah. The antagonist in this was really dumb too. Not enough cool battle sequences. Meh, but I like all the protagonists, at least. Kelly Marie Tran, though! You go girl! The more I think about it, the more I dislike it, so I’ll stop there.
– Bright (2017). I’m still shocked that Netflix can make original content with people like Will Smith. Simply amazing. That being said, as I was looking forward to this film since SDCC (got a free shirt, holla!), it was a bit disappointing. It was enjoyable, but didn’t dig very deep. There’s so much more that could be said; that’s why I’ll be awaiting the sequel, where hopefully, they delve into the lore a bit more (and have something more to say about social justice, etc.).

– Dunkirk (2017) . I felt like I needed to watch this because it’s a Christopher Nolan film, but I was hesitant because war dramas aren’t the most interesting to me. Alas, though it was probably because I wasn’t paying enough attention, I was rather bored and couldn’t quite follow along. Beautiful cinematics, but oh so boring. At least it was short.
Split (2017). Listen, y’all. I just want to start off by saying I have been a vocal hater of M. Night Shyamalan because of what he did to ATLA, but that can be forgiven in time (still wins the title of Worst Movie Ever) since he’s not a molester and/or rapist. So, now that that’s out of the way, I can’t believe I waited so long to see so many bald James McAvoy characters (bald James McAvoy is my favorite (“Let me in, Eric!”))! And yes, this was pretty bad for mental illness sufferers, but for myself, I’m aware enough not to equate the two things. I don’t care at all for Shyamalan, but I will say, I will now go see the other films in this trilogy.
– Atomic Blonde (2017). Charlize Theron makes ass-kicking look so amazing. I was kinda confused during the film about what was even going on, but maybe I was supposed to be. Luckily, I read it on Wikipedia and everything makes sense now. Very clever, one of those movies you should watch again to be sure you catch more. The fight scenes were excellent. Everything just looked really pretty. James McAvoy was nearly bald.
– Ingrid Goes West (2017). A quirky, disturbing, poignant film about Insta-fame and LA and social media. Funny, especially, O’Shea Jackson Jr.’s parts and all the Batman stuff. Didn’t care for the racist moment (but I never really do). Performances were great, but I really feel the movie fell apart at the end, as I don’t think it’s the best message to send. I’m still mulling it over as of writing this, but it fell a little short. Also, it kind of scares me in a Black Mirror way because it seems extreme, but it could be real right now or the near future.
– Logan Lucky (2017). Pleasantly surprised by the cleverness of this movie. The performances were top notch and hilarious and I wasn’t expecting such an ensemble cast of top-billed actors. I enjoy heist films, but this one had some novel ideas that kept it from being plain.
– The Foreigner (2017). Jackie Chan is so compelling as a man with nothing left to lose. Such a serious role for him, but he did it superbly. Overall, not a particular memorable or unique film, but interesting nonetheless.
– An Inconvenient Sequel: Truth to Power (2017). I needed this. I needed to see that Al Gore is still hopeful and optimistic. I needed to feel, even if briefly, that the world is not a complete mess and there are people out there fighting the good fight for Mother Earth. I don’t think they should ever stop with these Inconvenient movies until we don’t need them anymore.
– Sleeping with Other People (2015). This got added to Netflix and since I never watched it, I decided it was time. Alison Brie is just so great. I quite liked this movie, as ridiculous as it is. It was funny, relatable, and made me rather nostalgic for some reason. I liked the chemistry.
– Outlander season 3. Well, they did a lot right this season. I love the time travel aspect so much (which is so out of character for me if you knew I hate time travel done poorly), so it started out really awesome. Then, they added an Asian character who’s not a joke. And less rape, which is a plus. So that’s all cool. But looking back, a whole lot of nothing happened and it once again turned into a period piece drama and I was bored. Then the ending had some promise…but then nothing happened?! I just need to see Claire and Jamie time travel to 2018 and live in a modern world. Does it happen (no spoilers, book readers)?
– Black Mirror season series 4. I binged the other series right before during the week since it’s so short and I wanted to jog my memory and really fuck my headspace up. Well, it fookin’ worked, y’all. All these new episodes really fucked me up good. I’m glad they added in some more happy endings because zamn. At the same time, I need tinder to feed the flames of my black, nihilist soul. I still can’t decide which one is my favorite, so I had to do a rewatch…and I still can’t decide (not “Crocodile”, though, bye).
– Artemis by Andy Weir. I think I was too hype for this book because The Martian is one of my favorites. I enjoyed it, but it was, overall, rather forgettable, unfortunately. Luckily, it’s a short read and you may glean some fun out of it. Weir’s writing is great still and the funny moments are well-written.
– Swamp Thing by Scott Snyder, Charles Soule (Volume 5, 2011-2015). When I was collecting information of comic books to read, this title popped up a lot. And I was skeptical because Swamp Thing, really? But I was wrong, of course. I really enjoyed this volume. Soule’s run was actually better for me than Snyder’s. The story felt more compelling to me and the art was superb. I have a new appreciation for Swamp Thing as a character and not to mention, his powers are wicked.
– Animal Man by Jeff Lemire (Volume 2, 2011-2014). Eh, it wasn’t as good as I thought it was going to be based on recommendations. The art was lackluster and unfortunately, though rare, it distracted me from the story. I didn’t really have interest in Buddy Baker before this and I now have slightly more interest.


~ by Btab on 23 January 2018.

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