The List of Priorities

Some days, anxiety overwhelms me. Perhaps I’ve been pushing too hard trying to relax that I’ve become complacent and neglected thinking about my future.

To ease my mind, here’s a list of things I’d like to accomplish in the coming months of the year.

  1. Continue to focus on exercise and nutrition, as well as yoga and meditation. I need to learn to mix up routines and not get too comfortable all the time. I need to practice consistency, especially in nutrition. I’m going to try and clean bulk. I should push myself hard every time. A healthy body works in conjunction with a healthy mind, so keeping both parts strong is key. Balance is a term I throw around a lot, but it’s true.
  2. Apply to grad school, or more importantly, figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life. It’s so easy to compare myself with my peers on social media. Everyone’s going to school, getting jobs, getting married, etc. etc. And while difficult, it’s important to remember that everyone moves at a different pace and, regardless of what my parents might think, I would like to move at a pace I’m happy with. I think a lot of my stress comes from these unnecessary comparisons. I don’t want to go to school just for a high-paying job or because everyone else is doing it; I’m not a failure because I’m taking my time. I just want to know that my investments will be worth it.
  3. Find opportunities to be more green and help the environment. It’s something that I’m passionate about, but I haven’t really put much action into showing it. I’d like to learn more about this and make it a part of my lifestyle. I need to lead a more environmentally-friendly lifestyle and find causes that I want to research and support.
  4. Foster my relationships. Strive to be a better son, brother, friend, lover, and overall general human being. Never take people for granted. Never get upset for no reason. Communicate. Show people I love them. I think I’ve been a lot better this year, but there’s always room for improvement. I’ve also spent a lot of time getting to know myself better over the last year (and more (I’ve come a long way from being that angry, insensitive, immature boy)), and that really helped me grow and mature; I can be a better person to others because I am better to myself. Speaking of which, I need to better learn to stop being so hard on myself all the time.
  5. Leave time to enjoy my hobbies. I’ve fostered a lot of hobbies, many new ones and some old ones. It’s so important to have time to do things you love. A lot of things in life may stress me out, but there’s always something I can do to put my mind at ease. More specifically, I should continue to blog, read, learn French, and cook; working on art like drawing, photography, and cosplay; and be more active in hikes, traveling, and doing new outdoorsy activities.

When I lay it out like this, when I verbalize it…it makes me feel better– I’m not just stagnant, but in fact, I am working toward and satisfying my goals, whether it be slowly or quickly. And everything seems simpler and more doable now that I can visualize it. It really helps with the anxiety.

~ by Btab on 1 June 2015.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: