The Vicissitudes of Life on the Mountaintop

You will be fortunate in everything you put your hands on

My first fortune cookie of the year, courtesy of Diho Siam. And it’s a pretty positive one, so I’ll take it.

See, the first couple weeks of the year have been rather up-and-down.

I got a new phone and new glasses and it’s been a nice start to the Year of New Things. Seeing things in a new way, hehe, winky face emoji (which I can actually use now). Having an Android (or anything that’s not a Windows Phone) is crazy. It’s like I’ve been missing a huge part of life and the future and modern technology and everything is great and I love my phone and I can do so much now. Ahem, excuse the Galaxy Note 4 fanboying.

I’ve been rewatching old movies in my collection and I just finished this weekend. It’s amazing how much I can forget, but there’s still those moments when I realize why it was great enough to buy and add to my collection (who uses physical copies anymore?). And I remember how some of these movies have affected me so greatly, so profoundly, it made me weak. I’ve also watched a bunch of new movies, a lot in these couple of weeks compared to the rest of last year. And I don’t know, I’ve just been feeling introverted and sad and all I want to do is curl up on the couch and watch movies by myself.

But everything about this seems so unmistakably, uneasily familiar. And I don’t want it to be, anymore. I want to have less expectations and less predictability in the day to day. Things can’t always be relaxing-on-the-couch-forever. And I need to celebrate the spontaneity of the everyday. I just feel like I’ve reverted back to my old self that I’ve tried to evolve away from and it’s harder than I thought because every now and then, it just nags at me. I get all reflective and I got a good cry out of it.

I actually haven’t worked out too much which is really embarrassing, but for some reason, I just haven’t gotten out of my gym funk. If anything, I seem to have fallen deeper into this pit.

I just finished Y: The Last Man (finally got around to it), and it was engaging, powerful, hilarious, spectacular, and heartbreaking. And as a culmination of how these past two weeks have been for me, I just feel kind of empty right now.

I did get to go snowboarding this weekend, which I’ve been wanting to do since October. And it exceeded my expectations. I hadn’t been since I was a kid for numerous reasons, but when I was on the slopes, I felt like it all came so easy to me. I had such a great time and I can’t wait to go back. I’d like to make snowboarding a regular winter thing for me. I encountered the all-too-familiar rude and dumb people, the wetness of my entire body, and the (now appreciated) soreness. But prices weren’t too bad and I also learned that I board with a switch stance (both regular and goofy, switching off between the two comfortably as I go down the mountain), so that’s interesting.

It was nice to breathe in some fresh mountain air, clear my head, and perhaps find an epiphany on the mountaintop. I have a lot of conflicting thoughts swirling in my head and I’m trying to figure out which direction I want to head toward, but it’s been difficult.

I do have a checklist of new, more active hobbies I’d like to try and/or get into, so this was a nice gateway back into it. Hopefully, I can get through all of them (and perhaps more) by year’s end.

On top of that, I also have a list of other things I’d like to do more of and things I’d like to do less of. It’s actually been going pretty well so far. There are the regular culprits: more reading, blogging, working out. And I’d also like to do more art and photography this year, so I always keep it in the back of my mind. I’m getting better at texting immediately, as much as I can help it. Still working on time management and being more upfront/open. I’ve been trying to be calmer and I still need to figure how to do proper meditation because I’d like to die from something other than tachycardia.

My new plan is to go to a new restaurant or cook something new every week or so. Haven’t really started, but it’s something I’d like to do. I’ve also picked up French again, thanks to having Duolingo on my phone, I can practice a bit every day.

I’d like to swear less in everyday conversation, but this hasn’t been going so well because it’s been so natural for me. I’m trying to buy less, and I guess this has been going well, but I haven’t really run into any situations yet. I want to spend less time on the computer, which has been going very well for me (some days, I don’t even turn on my computer), but this may have to do with being able to do everything by phone. And lastly, less gaming and binge-watching shows/movies in general, for now, only confined to weekends.

I’m going to leave the post with this because I’m trying to be more upbeat, and nothing helps like my girl, Kelly.

~ by Btab on 18 January 2015.

One Response to “The Vicissitudes of Life on the Mountaintop”

  1. Had to Google vicissitude. Excellent word! Hope you’re making some progress toward the things that make you proud. There are a lot of good ideas here.

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