The 23

Thank you for the birthday love!

In top news of the month, I skipped a day at the gym since I first started getting serious. And it was leg day no less! But it was on account of my [early] birthday weekend (see last post). Forgive me, for I have sinned. My calves have repented.

In other fitness news, we’ve been going back to basics, changing up some routines, making sure everything is proper form. It’s all about technique, tension, and control. In other words, weight isn’t as important as many people make it out to be. Also, I’ve been trying to eat less and I may start doing cardio (*cringe*). My abs may make an appearance! And just to let everyone know, I’ve been asked to spot some pretty buff dudes three times already (one of which is probably the buffest guy at this gym) and thankfully, they didn’t need help because I probably wouldn’t have been able to do anything. Of course, it was mostly a convenience ask, but I’d like to think that I’m getting buffer so people be noticing.

What have I been up to for the past couple of weeks? Games. I had been doing so well without them, but then I bought some and then I’ve been sucked in and, when the weather is cold outside, it’s been nice to just sit inside play without agenda. I’m trying to take my time so I can maximize enjoyment and squeeze every last minute I have left with my PS3, but when it comes to games, I get sucked into a void of lethargy that’s hard to come out of. Especially during the holiday season, things are going to be ugly.

There is one new thing that happened this year and that is that I got stung by a bee for the first time. Picture it: I was driving home from the gym, window down, sun shining, singing loudly. And suddenly, I feel this sharp, acute pain on my palm. I look down and notice a thorn-like object stabbing me. It took me a long moment to register that it wasn’t just some thorn, but it was a stinger and it hurt like hell. And that’s when I notice a bee in my lap and all hell breaks loose and I start swerving and panicking and not knowing what to do. Thankfully, I was almost home and had the Internet to give me some advice. I guess there wasn’t much to be done, but now if I get stung again, I may go into anaphylaxis due to my Immunoglobulins (E?) and that’s worrisome because now I can’t keep my window rolled down due to a higher risk of dying? The worst part is that my attacker lies dead somewhere in my car and I do not want to go searching for him.

Another new thing is that I officially quit one of my jobs the other day. It had been a long time coming and I felt that it was a good time to finish the year and part ways. I think I’ll miss all the crazy stories, but I felt as if there was no further growth for me there. It’s a strange feeling to quit a job, mainly because I’ve never done it before, really. One of life’s big decisions, but it was time. Starting fresh for the new year!

I spent the last day as a 22 year old working, working out, playing games, and listening to “22” by Taylor Swift. Then, I spent my birthday working and then coming home and relaxing. It’s been pleasant and indulgent.

So, 22 in review. My birthday kind of marks the new year, being so close to the end of the year and all. So it’s pretty much good enough to review the year and then spend the next couple of weeks in holiday bliss before January rolls around.

It’s nice looking back briefly at this year in posts, seeing what was important to me at the time, what I fixated on, what was on my mind. It’s such a nice thing to have a blog. For the most part, the year was really great. A lot of good things happened, and not a lot of emo posts (woo!). I think March and July were a bit rough, but things seemed to pick up quickly. I think it’s the power of positivity- I’m good at recognizing when I hit a slump, so I just have to tell myself to get out of it and things seem to improve.

I got a new job earlier this year. I started working out religiously this year. I took the GRE. I lived by myself for a couple of weeks. I went on a lot of mini trips, I went to a lot of concerts, and I planned a lot of stuff. I met a lot of new people this year, which can be difficult after college and stuff. I became better friends with acquaintances. Year of extroversion! Besides the fact that I decided to be on a date-haitus (hai-date-us?) for most of the year and I think I’m going to continue into the next year (I mean, it’s half by choice, I’d like to think). It’s been nice not having to do the whole dating scene and just focusing on myself…not worrying about girls or dates or anything. Because if it happens, it’ll be natural. We’ll see how long I can go before I feel the need to be set up again. But still, the club/bar scene is not my thing. Honestly, it’s probably been my best year. I feel like I’ve really grown a helluva lot as a person. Maybe I’m just on a high because these last few months have been so good to me. Big things to look forward to next year!

I’ve had a great year and, although I’d love to give myself a pat on the back, it would only make sense to also pat all my friends on their backs too (figuratively, though also…perhaps literally). It’s odd because I don’t feel older, really. It’s hardly hit me that it’s my birthday. Partly because I celebrated early. Partly because it’s not a “special” year. And partly because it’s kind of the same life situation I’ve been in since around 21-22. That post-grad lost feeling. But I’ve seemed to make the most of it this year, not letting things give me anxiety and truly enjoying the little moments this year. I’m proud that I’ve been able to do that, but I also feel like now, I’d like to get back on track. Without the negative energy. I’ve been putting it off lately for whatever reasons. 2015: big things and good vibes (though arguably, this was my successful motto of 2014 (bigger things and better vibes, then))!

Some things I’ve learned or re-learned. Looking back on my posts, I realize how important optimism is. I used to be primarily a pessimist and a cynic, but it’s been mentally and emotionally helpful to look on the brighter side of things- to be more optimistic, for once. I’ve reiterated to myself that life is short and some things are worth thinking about and other things are not. I’m trying to be more chill, though we’ll see how that goes.

Any resolutions? I’m going to say no. I’m proud of my realizations (pun! wait, is it a pun or a double entendre?) this year and the only thing would just be to continue my good habits and consequently, be a better me. Yay!


~ by Btab on 19 December 2014.

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