The Compartmentalization

•25 February 2018 • Leave a Comment

Health Log

– I weighed myself for the first time in a long time because I needed to weigh my dog and it turns out I’ve lost a lot of weight! Ugh, almost back to my stupid set point. People have been telling me I’m slimmer. It’s an odd feeling because I definitely am slim in the waist again (I can fit into old clothes), but I don’t feel too skinny. I actually think I’ve gained some decent mass overall. I mean, this was predictable, as I stopped calorie counting and I’m not stuffing my face all the time. I’ve also been way too lax on eating regularly, I think. I need to rediscover proper snacking.

Independence Log

– I did my taxes early! And got a nice return, just in time for vacation, which is going to be more expensive than I thought. I probably won’t be taking a large vacation like this for a while.
– Some MoviePass thoughts: Going to the movies alone is great! It becomes a nice get in get out affair and since my schedule is odd and ever-changing, it’s nice to be able to schedule midday movie treats for myself. I always think to myself I could never get used to a 9-5 schedule and I’m so thankful I’m not in a cubicle because I don’t think I could do it.

Connection Log

– I’m trying to make myself more available. It’s a weird paradox of wanting to go out and wanting to stay in. On any given day, one can beat out another for no specific reason. But I think I’ve missed the idea of making plans with someone and both parties actually show up and things go according to plan. I also think a lot of people like giving off the vibe that they’re too busy and have to “pencil you in”. On the contrary, I want to try and make my schedule more open. Sure, sometimes I am busy literally because I’ve scheduled some me-time, but I’d like to try and be consistent with people and not have the “when was the last time we saw each other?” chat with people I consider my friends.
– Some more MoviePass thoughts: I think I’m learning the art of paying attention to things intently for at least a couple of hours. Previously, I’ve become used to streaming things non-stop and just partially paying attention. With shows (cough Netflix cough), I can just watch it and rewatch it and rewatch it. It’s almost an illness, but with MoviePass, it forces me to be present and I think that’s a great thing. It’s easy to try and multi-task with streaming at home, but at a theater, there’s a certain grace about it. Hopefully, this can intermingle with the idea of being present with people. It’s a lost art form, the idea of a proper conversation with an intellectual. I actually am hyper-aware of this being the anxiety-ridden awkward person I am and I like to judge people on the quality of their conversational abilities. It’s fun!

Experience Log

– I’ve pretty much been putting everything aside in order to focus my free time on planning my vacation. It’s one of those feelings: “I shouldn’t start on this until after vacation” or “I’ll figure this out after vacation, when my mind is less busy”. It’s only slightly inconvenient that I’m also moving (gasp! Yes, it’s official), so I’ve been putting stuff off because of this too.
– I got SCUBA-certified (officially)! Just in time for vacation too. For these next dives, we went to Laguna Beach (Shaw’s Cove) and it wasn’t as magnificent as Catalina Island, but at least it was close. Diving is so fun, amazing, exhilarating, and exhausting!
– We celebrated Tet over the weekend as well. I suddenly felt old and didn’t want to get in line to get money. However, I’m still in the “kid” generation, so I did get some envelopes. I think it was a shift in mentality. Turning 26 and really pushing for my own independence…I don’t really need to look forward to a boost in cash reserves because I finally feel like I’m stable with my money, or at least, smarter. And I’m very aware that I am so blessed to be able to think that. Then again, any money (including tax return) before vacation is helpful.
– I’m moving, but we’ll save that for another post.

Signal Boost

– Black Panther. My first introduction to Black Panther was in a random X-Men comic where Storm went to Wakanda. He was and is such a badass. Also, this film is incredible. I couldn’t stop internally screeching in the theater. An amazing Marvel film featuring predominantly non-whites?! I am here for this! Also the soundtrack is lit. Everything about this movie is excellence embodied.
– Annihilation. I don’t know. I’m definitely glad I had people watching with me this time so we could discuss it after. Mindbending, confusing, brilliant, disturbing, hmm. Still digesting this one.
– Justice League. Wait…I actually really liked this movie. Probably because I had very low expectations. The main thing for me was that this was way too short. How are you going to introduce 3 new characters on top of an ensemble cast and be this short? That’s why it felt so…not as epic. But really, still…I really really liked it. I think I can forgive a lot of the weird moments because OMFG, I can see some of my favorite characters come to life. I mean this was always going to be Wonder Woman and a bunch of awesome dudes, but even then, Miller and Momoa were brilliant. Honestly, Miller may be a better Barry than Gustin. Fighting scenes were quite enjoyable. A good mix of humor and gravitas. I’m actually excited for the future of the DCEU, granted they don’t fuck everything up again.
– Coco. I wasn’t ready! Pixar does it again! I am floored! The predictability of the film is not mutually exclusive with how great it is. I was just bawling. And I’ve always loved how Spanish sounds when sung. Brilliant. Needless to say, this movie made it on my list of favorites of 2k17.
Call Me By Your Name. If you thought this movie was going to be a psychological thriller about someone who takes over another person’s life and becomes them, you’d be like me: rather wrong. This is more of an artsy, white nonsense movie that takes place in the idyllic European countryside. For movies that don’t really do anything, I prefer the mumblecore genre. Nonetheless, acting was superb, I understand the acclaim, though I probably wouldn’t watch it again. Rather boring, not my style. I also have no idea what the title means (I know they said it in the movie, but I don’t understand it).
– Lady Bird. More white nonsense, but this time, white girl nonsense. I was looking forward to this film because of the acclaim, and I do love indie, quirky, coming of age stories. But zamn, maybe I don’t anymore? I found the titular Lady Bird character to be really annoying and I get why she is, but it was so frustrating. Maybe I just have a lower tolerance for ungrateful little shits. Nonetheless, acting was superb, I understand the acclaim, though I probably wouldn’t watch it again. I do wish I enjoyed these acclaimed films more, but maybe I’m not cultured enough. It had its funny moments.
– Molly’s Game. Chastain, Elba, and Sorkin? What chemistry! This movie kept me really engaged to see what would happen next, even though I wouldn’t categorize this as a top movie of 2k17, nor would I want to watch it again any time soon. It was fun and smart and very interesting.
– The Disaster Artist. I don’t even remember why I wanted to watch this movie, but I think I heard it was really weird (without directly commenting on James Franco). Even when it said based on a true story, I thought that was satirical. Anyway, these people are real and I’m shocked and confused. Entertaining, but in the strangest way. Awkward, disturbing, random. I don’t even know.
– I, Tonya. Such a strange true story to read about, with a lot of commentary on America as a whole. Another film with an entire main cast of wonderful acting. I enjoyed the way the story was told, and as riveting as the incident and controversy was, I don’t think it needed this movie.
– Wonder. I was actually reading this book with one of my kiddos and it had a really great message: to choose kind. Such a wonderful, heartwarming story and I actually started crying instantly. Bullying sucks, y’all.
– Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle. What a fun film. I don’t even know why, but Jack Black had me cracking up. A good followup to the original (and nicely modernized!) to reiterate how evil this game is.
– The Greatest Showman. So many mixed reviews. It was good, decent. I didn’t really care for the story, nor did I care for the character. I cheered when their circus closed last year. But I appreciate the Hollywood sanitization of the real life story for the sake of fun storytelling. I will say: this soundtrack is lit though. I’m so glad I got a Zac/Zendaya duet (I need Zedd to remix it though). Don’t care to rewatch, but will be bopping to this soundtrack.
– Beast of Burden. I mean, I only watched this for Daniel Radcliffe. I randomly saw it on Fandango, added it to my list, couldn’t find it in theaters, so watched it only. I was only half paying attention, but not worth watching. Makes me rethink my decision to literally watch any film in theaters with MoviePass. Should I still be choosy? I mean, it doesn’t even have a wiki page.
– The Shape of Water. A lot of old people in this showing. I was really looking forward to this one, but I’m not so sure how I feel just yet; I want to let it sit. I think my tastes have changed…looking at my 2017 top movie lists, it’s all blockbuster superhero fun times. I don’t have a taste for the elegance and depth of movies like this anymore. At least, that’s how I feel right now based on some evidence. Like, “it was a great experience, but I don’t think I’d watch it again (because a lot of parts dragged)”. Everyone was phenomenal, but it was still kinda…weird. I found there to be too many plotholes or threads that went nowhere. It fizzled out for me.
– Hostiles. It started out slow, but then it hit me. Such immense intensity in these characters. I ended up loving the slow build. It’s still so heartbreaking thinking about how invading Americans have treated Native Americans.
Batman: Gotham by Gaslight. I love a good alternate universe one-shot. This story tells of Victorian era Gotham City as Batman attempts to solve the mystery of Jack the Ripper. It was rather boring and hard to follow and the animation style wasn’t for me. Eh, I sadly haven’t really enjoyed the last few DCUAO movies.
– Fullmetal Alchemist (2017). They made a movie in Japan and they just released it here as a Netflix original. Naturally, I had to watch it. It was great! With the caveat that you should probably watch the anime series (both) before watching this because I don’t think you’d be able to follow along without it. The good news is that the series are amazing. This was a good adaptation that was faithful, but suffered from the fact that they tried to squeeze the series into a movie. It did make me want to rewatch both series, which are on Netflix as well. Such convenience!
– Altered Carbon season 1. I’m still torn. I initially wanted to watch this because Dichen Lachman and Will Yun Lee and a diverse cast and sci-fi. It seemed like it’d be awesome. I feel overall, it was good, but fell short of what I expected. The concept is very interesting and I’d like to see where they go next. I think I need to rewatch and pay more attention though. I rewatched it and I think there are many issues (they could have addressed the racial stuff better). I wouldn’t say it was whitewashing, but it could be better. But I think I’m more anticipating what’s coming next; I do hope they address the issues and make a better season 2. It’s a clever show indeed with a lot of potential.
– Planet Earth II. The quintessential nature documentary returns! I love these, even with the added drama. Even as I watch some of the same things over and over again, these episodes seemed to keep things fresh and new still.
– Bill Nye Saves the World season 2 part I. I really liked this season. Fun, but not too cheesy or dumbed down. Good topics and interesting information. The segments were better done this season. Can I just say that I’m glad there’s a personal childhood hero out there that happens to be a cis straight white man that is not problematic, and is indeed, quite progressive. Also, I really want to smoke a j with Bill.
– Rotten season 1. I love food documentaries, especially ones that address greed and corruption. This is honestly one of the main reasons I would like to go vegan. Big agriculture is so corrupt and as a society, we are so brainwashed, it’s scary! And I’m obviously a hippie socialist contrarian hipster, so I cannot abide. I liked these episodes for the knowledge learned, but I have zero sympathy for these farmers who cannot survive…like boohoo you’re murdering animals for money and can’t survive. Ugh, these episodes made me so angry, partly because they didn’t address a better future or how to fix the issues. Watch if you’d like some enlightenment on food corruption, but there are better docs on Netflix.
– Dirty Money season 1. Another Netflix docu-series that makes me angry. Of course corruption and greed are at the crux of everything, who would have guessed? Very interesting, and may be enlightening to many.
– Midnighter (2015) and Midnigher and Apollo (2016-2017) by Steve Orlando. Yay for representation. I really liked these short series, the latter moreso. Midnighter is such a badass, I would have liked to see him in bigger story arcs that were equally epic, but wouldn’t feel as rushed as these did.


The Finesse

•23 January 2018 • Leave a Comment

Health Log

– I unfortunately haven’t prioritized routinely going to the gym this year/month because of how my schedule has been a bit whacky. I’m trying to get myself back into form.
– Despite this, I was able to do a handstand push-up against the wall! I was shocked. I don’t think I went low enough, but with time, it should come. It’s so weird because I haven’t been practicing handstands consistently, but I felt so much stronger in my arm support. I still can’t do a handstand without wall support, however.
– It feels so good doing meal prep again (I stopped during the holiday season out of laziness and non-necessity). I feel like I’ve really perfected my meals and there’s less and less variation now that I know how to properly make each meal. And now that I feel that way, it may be a perfect time to try new things. I’m definitely planning to cook a lot more different vegan meals, so hopefully I can incorporate the convenient/easy ones for lunch.

Independence Log

– My parents brought up the fact that we’re moving and I found this an opportune time to discuss paying rent. I’ve been thinking about this a lot since I’ve started serious budgeting and I thought it’d be a good idea to pay rent to really see if I can live properly and to give back to my parents. Of course, they rejected this notion, which was partially expected. I’m planning on bringing this up continuously until they just take my money, so I’m moving the rent money I’ve budgeted to pay them monthly into a savings account and letting it accumulate out of range, as if it’s not mine anymore.
– Speaking of my parents moving, I think this time it’s more serious, like we’re actually moving. I’m hesitant to discuss it further as I don’t really know the timeline, nor do I want to know. I’ll just let it be a bittersweet surprise. Still debating if I should just move out when they move though.
– I’ve been looking into investing and starting a retirement account and it’s all very scary and confusing, so there’s that.

Connection Log

– I spent NYE alone, which is how I guess I planned it, but in the end, half of me felt so utterly lonely. A majority of the time, I like being alone, but then some days, it just hits me. I didn’t even watch the countdown because I forgot we don’t have TV anymore. It was an odd feeling, one that really made me rather introspective.
– Luckily, my sister’s dog has moved back home (temporarily?) and it’s been so fun having her around. It really helps with the loneliness.
– My mom mentioned in passing that she wanted to set me up with her friend’s daughter. I was panicking in my head, but luckily I was watching a movie, so I pretended I wasn’t listening and she hasn’t brought it up again. I’m cool and actually like going on blind dates, but what startled me was the fact that they brought this up. My parents, who didn’t want me dating in college because they wanted me to focus on my future. My parents, who, after college, still wanted me not to date because I had to focus on my future. It’s all good though because that meant I didn’t have to introduce them to girls I was dating and we never needed to breach the subject matter. So that’s why my life flashed before my eyes.
– I’m trying to have more routine hangouts with people. For instance, playing D&D and Pandemic Legacy regularly creates hangouts virtually on their own, without much effort to gather people. It’s nice to have hangouts like this because it reminds me to hang out with people and not let too much time go by before seeing friends. Of course, this isn’t always the case, so I’m trying to be a lot more proactive in texting people and prioritizing meeting up with them.

Experience Log

– I ordered MoviePass from Costco, finally. It took some time and a lot of hesitation and to be honest, I’m still pretty pre-anxious about what’s going to happen in a year from now when I try to cancel. That hassle is already making me nervous. Also, just waiting around for the card to come was nerve-wracking. I just felt like so much could go wrong because of all the horror stories I heard. Nonetheless, this was all pushed aside because of my desire to go to the movies more often. I’m totally comfortable going by myself too, so it’ll be a nice change of pace. Plus, it’s one of my goals to take myself out on more dates anyway. I’ve also been trying to catch all of the 2017 movies I missed since I didn’t go to the movies much. Because of the MoviePass, I may be veering back into “watch anything” territory, instead of my “pick and choose” mentality. I guess I do have the time (or at least, perspective-wise, I should make time for myself and my hobbies, movie-watching being one of them).
– Overall, my first experience using MoviePass was outstanding. The theater by my house filled their rooms with all reclining, plush, and reserved seats, which was a nice surprise. There wasn’t an issue using it
– I’ve been making more lists lately. Lists of important things, lists of useless things. I just want to be prepared when someone asks me: “What’s your top 10 movies ever? Go!” and I’ll be ready this time.
– I also wanted to just organize my thoughts coming into the new year with a fresh mind. Getting back into the swing of things, as it were. They say we shouldn’t have any zero days, but I had basically 14 zero days in a row at the end of last year, so…yeah. But anyway, I’ve been working on a lot of fun, different things, which I feel like has really divided my time improperly and hasn’t allowed me to flow as I continuously switch hobbies, allocating certain times to certain hobbies each day. I may have to rethink this, but for now, it’s alright.
– In retrospect, holistically, I feel like I’ve been wasting my time this month, or rather, I’ve been using my time unwisely, prioritizing things incorrectly. There’s been a lack of motivation to “get it in gear” after the new year arrived. This might also be stemming from the fact that I don’t have anything urgent I need to do, so the relaxation is making me question myself and giving me anxiety. It might also just feel like I’m not necessarily accomplishing anything because I’m partially starting many things instead of finishing. It’s probably just all in my head.

Signal Boost

– Thor: Ragnarok (2017). My most anticipated film of 2017 and I can’t believe I missed its theatrical run (I thought my MoviePass would be here sooner but I miscalculated). Anyway, it did not disappoint. I love all the promotional material, I love Taika Waititi, I love Chris Hemsworth, I love not having Jane Foster, everything was excellent. Favorite movie of the MCU? Just may be. #TeamThor
– Star Wars: The Last Jedi (2017). I am not a fan of the series, but I did really like Rogue One…a lot. So I thought I’d watch this anyway. It wasn’t bad and I liked it much better than Episode VII. So many cute creatures! I just find these movies so derivative. I can appreciate that these movies are for a new generation, but why can’t they just make it a new story line? It’s just a repeat of the same old thing…Jedi vs. evil people and there’s no hope in the galaxy blah blah blah. The antagonist in this was really dumb too. Not enough cool battle sequences. Meh, but I like all the protagonists, at least. Kelly Marie Tran, though! You go girl! The more I think about it, the more I dislike it, so I’ll stop there.
– Bright (2017). I’m still shocked that Netflix can make original content with people like Will Smith. Simply amazing. That being said, as I was looking forward to this film since SDCC (got a free shirt, holla!), it was a bit disappointing. It was enjoyable, but didn’t dig very deep. There’s so much more that could be said; that’s why I’ll be awaiting the sequel, where hopefully, they delve into the lore a bit more (and have something more to say about social justice, etc.).

– Dunkirk (2017) . I felt like I needed to watch this because it’s a Christopher Nolan film, but I was hesitant because war dramas aren’t the most interesting to me. Alas, though it was probably because I wasn’t paying enough attention, I was rather bored and couldn’t quite follow along. Beautiful cinematics, but oh so boring. At least it was short.
Split (2017). Listen, y’all. I just want to start off by saying I have been a vocal hater of M. Night Shyamalan because of what he did to ATLA, but that can be forgiven in time (still wins the title of Worst Movie Ever) since he’s not a molester and/or rapist. So, now that that’s out of the way, I can’t believe I waited so long to see so many bald James McAvoy characters (bald James McAvoy is my favorite (“Let me in, Eric!”))! And yes, this was pretty bad for mental illness sufferers, but for myself, I’m aware enough not to equate the two things. I don’t care at all for Shyamalan, but I will say, I will now go see the other films in this trilogy.
– Atomic Blonde (2017). Charlize Theron makes ass-kicking look so amazing. I was kinda confused during the film about what was even going on, but maybe I was supposed to be. Luckily, I read it on Wikipedia and everything makes sense now. Very clever, one of those movies you should watch again to be sure you catch more. The fight scenes were excellent. Everything just looked really pretty. James McAvoy was nearly bald.
– Ingrid Goes West (2017). A quirky, disturbing, poignant film about Insta-fame and LA and social media. Funny, especially, O’Shea Jackson Jr.’s parts and all the Batman stuff. Didn’t care for the racist moment (but I never really do). Performances were great, but I really feel the movie fell apart at the end, as I don’t think it’s the best message to send. I’m still mulling it over as of writing this, but it fell a little short. Also, it kind of scares me in a Black Mirror way because it seems extreme, but it could be real right now or the near future.
– Logan Lucky (2017). Pleasantly surprised by the cleverness of this movie. The performances were top notch and hilarious and I wasn’t expecting such an ensemble cast of top-billed actors. I enjoy heist films, but this one had some novel ideas that kept it from being plain.
– The Foreigner (2017). Jackie Chan is so compelling as a man with nothing left to lose. Such a serious role for him, but he did it superbly. Overall, not a particular memorable or unique film, but interesting nonetheless.
– An Inconvenient Sequel: Truth to Power (2017). I needed this. I needed to see that Al Gore is still hopeful and optimistic. I needed to feel, even if briefly, that the world is not a complete mess and there are people out there fighting the good fight for Mother Earth. I don’t think they should ever stop with these Inconvenient movies until we don’t need them anymore.
– Sleeping with Other People (2015). This got added to Netflix and since I never watched it, I decided it was time. Alison Brie is just so great. I quite liked this movie, as ridiculous as it is. It was funny, relatable, and made me rather nostalgic for some reason. I liked the chemistry.
– Outlander season 3. Well, they did a lot right this season. I love the time travel aspect so much (which is so out of character for me if you knew I hate time travel done poorly), so it started out really awesome. Then, they added an Asian character who’s not a joke. And less rape, which is a plus. So that’s all cool. But looking back, a whole lot of nothing happened and it once again turned into a period piece drama and I was bored. Then the ending had some promise…but then nothing happened?! I just need to see Claire and Jamie time travel to 2018 and live in a modern world. Does it happen (no spoilers, book readers)?
– Black Mirror season series 4. I binged the other series right before during the week since it’s so short and I wanted to jog my memory and really fuck my headspace up. Well, it fookin’ worked, y’all. All these new episodes really fucked me up good. I’m glad they added in some more happy endings because zamn. At the same time, I need tinder to feed the flames of my black, nihilist soul. I still can’t decide which one is my favorite, so I had to do a rewatch…and I still can’t decide (not “Crocodile”, though, bye).
– Artemis by Andy Weir. I think I was too hype for this book because The Martian is one of my favorites. I enjoyed it, but it was, overall, rather forgettable, unfortunately. Luckily, it’s a short read and you may glean some fun out of it. Weir’s writing is great still and the funny moments are well-written.
– Swamp Thing by Scott Snyder, Charles Soule (Volume 5, 2011-2015). When I was collecting information of comic books to read, this title popped up a lot. And I was skeptical because Swamp Thing, really? But I was wrong, of course. I really enjoyed this volume. Soule’s run was actually better for me than Snyder’s. The story felt more compelling to me and the art was superb. I have a new appreciation for Swamp Thing as a character and not to mention, his powers are wicked.
– Animal Man by Jeff Lemire (Volume 2, 2011-2014). Eh, it wasn’t as good as I thought it was going to be based on recommendations. The art was lackluster and unfortunately, though rare, it distracted me from the story. I didn’t really have interest in Buddy Baker before this and I now have slightly more interest.

The Care 2k18

•1 January 2018 • Leave a Comment

Alas, a new year! I love it– it’s so arbitrary and relative, yet…it feels fresh, clean, new, exciting! These random dates act as a great signal to be conscious and be present! Like how there’s Valentine’s Day to remind us that we should love and be loved (#choosekind) 24/7 for all 365 days of the year.

These posts are always fun to make: it’s my “beginning of the new year / looking forward  / reflecting back / metamorphosis / what the fuck happened between December 17 and December 31?” post. But I’m not making any resolutions this year. I have my Impossible List to keep me on track going forward. I’ve also happily been able to narrow down my values last year (#HICE) so I can be steady in my convictions.

You know what’s cool and novel? Actually giving a fuck. Showing people that you care. Showing yourself that you care (#treatyoself). So my pledge this year is to care more. I’ve always been an emotional and empathetic person, but sometimes it’s easier to pretend to be cool and brush things off and dgaf. But there’s something valuable about giving your all, come what may.

Honestly, 2017 was one of my best years to date. I did a lot for myself and my mindfulness went off the charts. I’m pretty proud of myself for all the small changes I’ve made, both physically and psychologically. Remember, all it takes is a shift in perspective. I was anxious for some parts of the year, but I also found so much inner peace. I’m ready to spread this healing mentality to 2018.

It’s odd, because looking back, in the recent ’10s years, I’ve been exiting the holiday season more sober and melancholy, slightly cynical, but optimistic still. Now, I feel like I have some control in my life and I’m headed into 2018 with a head full of love and peace. It’s a strange feeling- I’m just not used to it and don’t want to take it for granted.

There was a lot of negativity in the world in 2017, but despite it all, I’ve managed to remain unbroken. Yes, it seemed like the world was going to collapse, which is why I felt like I need to get back to basics: care and love and kindness — for the sake of kindness! It’s an easy choice, but it is a choice, one that everyone needs to make every moment of the day for themselves.

I’ve come to accept the natural rhythm of life and its vicissitudes. It’s nothing to have good days and slumps and great days and bad moments. It’s all up and down (otherwise, there would be no up and down).

I think time has been a fun conundrum. There were times this year where I had no time to do anything and it felt overwhelming. Then, I had all the time in the world and didn’t know what to do with it. I was able to fulfill and return to so many hobbies, while learning and trying a lot of new things! It seems crazy, now, looking back, to see what milestones I’ve passed this year.


– UT/AZ roadtrip
– falling in love and feeling loved
– taking a class again and enjoying it immensely
– starting to exclusively binge-watch TV
– tattoo #3
– the inception of Sustainability Journeys and Sustaina-Bo-Le!
– SCUBA-certified
– desserts (and mostly vegan ones too)
– D&D and tabletop games and PS+ and Magic
– rekindling old hobbies like art projects
– new hobbies like edX
– enlightenment about my future (with the help of friends and family)
– making an Impossible List and learning about my values
– updated organization of these blog posts (with pictures too!)

I feel like it’s all been leading up to this past year, me realizing a lot of things. Going forward, it may seem like slow crawls, but progress nonetheless. It’s less nebulous to me now, this person that I’ve become and will become. And that’s kind of a cool realization.

#strongarm2k13, #yearofextroversion2k14, #yearofnewthings2k15, #commit2k16, #mindful2k17, #care2k18



The 26

•17 December 2017 • Leave a Comment

What is it like to be 26? Less scary than I thought.

26 is a big milestone, partially in terms of number, but more on a personal level. I needed to buy health insurance. I’m past my early twenties…I’m pretty much 30 now. I’m going into a new year feeling like I’m at a good spot in my life- emotionally, physically, spiritually. Usually, at this time, I’d create some resolutions, but in reality, I’ve been very on top of myself (AYOOO!) and have been self-actualizing weekly (daily, even). So, it feels like a slow progression, but I also don’t feel like I need to do these anymore, which is a pretty cool feeling.

I spent a lot of these past couple weeks refining my budget, preparing for a strict 2018 budget. Working more hours means making more money. Being 26 means bills to pay. I’ve been forgiving with myself to allow myself more spending money than I normally give, which has been freeing, yet also terrifying. I didn’t realize how much of my income I’ve been able to save away. But I need to be less afraid to just spend, especially if it’s Experience Spending. At the same time, I didn’t realize how easy it is to have almost nothing saved up after expenses. Luckily, my life is very simple, so my only current subscription is Netflix. Everything is guilt-free moochable stuff, especially from my sister (like Prime and Costco, among others).

I’ve also spent a lot of these past couple weeks figuring out my insurance. It’s been very confusing and there’s been a lot of back and forth with decisions and costs and, not to mention, waiting around for them to get and approve my application. Some crazy, convoluted stuff actually happened, but I can say now that I’m officially enrolled. It was a very confusing process and I had no knowledge whatsoever, which was kind of annoying. But thanks, Internet, for helping me out! I’m not stressed out about this anymore.

On top of that, I’ve been enjoying customizing, updating, and playing around with my new Note 8 (named Totoro), which has so much fun, new capabilities, especially things I never knew with my Note 4. It’s been actually strangely freeing, as I haven’t been addicted to social media lately. I love the Always On Display, the widgets and minimalist design, the gestures and Edge shortcuts, literally all the S Pen stuff, and the near-endless customization. I’m loving the ring I attached so I can hold the giant phone and not drop it on my face in bed, among other things. And it has a magnet, so I can hang it in my car. My favorite thing is NOT HAVING THE PHONE DIE 10 TIMES PER DAY FOR NO REASON. I’ve just given more thought to my phone as an extension of my life, making it work for me as efficiently as possible. I like to believe I live a very electronically ascetic lifestyle (for the average OC/CA/USA middle class 26 (gasp!) year old), but my phone is much appreciated.

These past few weeks have also been me falling into a rabbit hole of Magic the Gathering and just really embracing it all with my best friends. I think that’s been the real fun- we’ve found something random to get excited about and learn about together, just another thing to bring us closer as buddies, which is a pretty cool and rare feeling. A treasured moment.

I spent my birthday weekend in Catalina getting SCUBA-certified. I initially was hesitant to do it, but I thought, y’know, it’s one of those treat yo’self moments, especially since it was my birthday. I technically still have one more class, but can pretty much go diving now! We ended up canceling today’s trip because of the Santa Ana winds, so I was able to go out last night with friends (clubbing for the first time since forever?!). Everyone is still a hot mess and that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Like we’re older, but we’re still shenanigan-ful.

Leading up to the moments before starting classes, I kept having so much anxiety. I felt like I reverted back to my super-introverted self who would play out so many scenarios and how things could go wrong. But gaining confidence while underwater is something magical, unforgettable. Catalina was gorgeous and, just below the surface, there’s a whole new world that we really have to protect even though we don’t see it.

For my actual birthday, I finally got to go to a dog park and experience the joys of being overrun by dogs. This was only made possible because of Luke, Leo, and Baby.

Daniel Radcliffe sure has his hands full in NYC **USA, Canada, Australia ONLY**

My next goal.

Lastly, I’ve been prepping a lot of hobbies I want to go full force into, but I’ve just been delaying for the new year, as it seemed like a good turning point to get a routine going.

On a final note, I’ve been listening to Christmas music since November 1 without shame, but I haven’t had the chance to say yet how excited I am for the holiday season. As in, it’s come so fast I almost forgot it was here (it certainly doesn’t feel like it in this climate changing world we live in). For this holiday season, I’m just planning on making memories with the people I love. Thank you all so much for the birthday wishes and for sticking around and being part of my life…and I just feel really sentimental right now so I should stop.


The Dive-In

•30 November 2017 • Leave a Comment

Adventure Catalog

– I finally signed up for SCUBA classes! I haven’t started yet, but it’s gonna be exciting and scary at the same time.
Brown Thursday Thanksgiving and Black Friday were exceptional this year. My mom and I went over to my aunt’s house and ate white people food. And then my cousin and I went shopping after. On Friday, more shopping with friends (and starting a new addiction?!). I’ve actually been shopping for at least a couple weeks before because places were having good deals ahead of time, which I appreciate.
– A note on consumerism: yes, I am well aware that it doesn’t really align with my sustainability model I strive for. However, I did try to reduce where I could. Deals are sometimes too good to pass up. This year, I’ve officially stopped buying physical movies. In fact, I don’t know if I’ll ever buy movies again. I bought 6 games, but 3 of them were digital. As for the new phone I got, I went as long as I could without upgrading (3 years), meaning that I spent the last year or so with a phone that couldn’t hold a charge…it started dying at 40%…then 50%…then this past month, would die around 60-70% battery. It was difficult to work with this. Lastly, no bags!
– In order to save money, I actually think it’s more economical to do my indulgence purchasing once a year and I’ll be okay for the rest of the year for the most part. I was able to stay within a pre-made budget (I updated my budget based around my income and will officially attempt not to stray from it going forward).
– I actually didn’t go out this month (which explains why I had so much money saved for shopping). I’ve spent a lot of this month enjoying hobbies and making proper use of my free time. I think I’ve been delaying a lot of stuff from my list (see previous post) until the new year (or at least until I got this new phone).
– Y’all, I went 6 days without phone access. It was difficult, but easier than I thought. That’s partially because I’m not beholden to anyone (#single5ever), but also because it was kind of thrilling to go on a forced retreat; I had no option but to be disconnected. There were minor communication issues, but overall, I respected the time I had away from the phone.
– A lot of new and exciting things happening for me next month and beyond. Very excited to go all in!

Health Catalog

– I’ve been dealing with getting health insurance since I’m turning 26 next month, and it’s been annoying how slow things have been. I think I got approved, but who the hell knows. It’s too confusing.
– I also made some final appointments under my parents’ insurance since it’s affordable right now. I’ll just die next year because I can’t afford fixing myself up.
– At the MD office, everything went well for my first physical/routine check-up ever (I know, I avoided the MD for as long as I could). I am a picture of health! My BP was normal– for the first time in…I don’t even know. It might have just been a fluke, but it generally runs high. I also got a flu shot for the second (?) time ever…I know, I’m a horrible human being because I never go in to get it. And I did bloodwork for the first time ever. Results were excellent!
– At the DDS office, there’s another story. I feel like my mouth is about to die, which is annoying, because I’m very orally fixated and have begun to take meticulous care of my mouth (but maybe the years of reckless abandon is catching up).
– I just feel like I’m getting “old” and my body is already starting to die (at an accelerated rate). Take me, I’m ready…

Signal Boost

– Sing. I wasn’t really interested in this movie, but it was on Netflix, so why not? Turned out to be a nice, fun movie with some good vocals. My favorite part from the trailer was the part with the frog saying he’s an insufferable egomaniac and sauntering off all dramatic-like. And then the koala/sheep carwash was really funny. And sometimes animal movies don’t always properly translate everything, but it was cool to see the fish getting their own stairs. I’m glad they made addressed the squid, because I was about to be mad that they randomly had seemingly naked squid swimming in a cage. Still, there were some animal stereotypes. I always have way too many questions about how each animal lives their lives in the animal society, but that’s too much for an animated children’s movie. Really surprised by Matthew McConaughey’s voice acting and Taron Egerton’s singing; loved everyone’s performance as well, actually.
– Kung Fu Yoga. Y’all, if there was any live-action film that is close to Jackie Chan Adventures, this is it! I was randomly recommended this on Netflix because I’ve been watching a lot of Chinese martial arts films. And I saw “yoga” and Jackie Chan and I was in. Little did I know how hilarious and ridiculous this would be, just like the show. Jackie plays an archaeologist named Jack Chan and someone calls him Uncle Jackie and the comparisons kind of end there, but still, that’s enough to make the comparison! I don’t know if this movie is racist or woke. I’m still laughing about it and Jackie Chan is the best. Watch for a wild ride and don’t have expectations going in.
 The Punisher season 1. I didn’t really care to watch this show, but…I had some time and needed a break from gaming. And I didn’t really care (or necessarily enjoy the show) until about halfway through the season. It honestly didn’t feel like the other Marvel Netflix shows, which can be a good thing. The only thing that really rooted it in was Karen Page. Everything else just seemed like any other drama show about Homeland Security. The fight scenes weren’t all that great, but there were some cool ones. I just don’t see a reason for another season. While I do enjoy these anti-hero types that will kill, it does seem to come at a bad time in American history. I still don’t know how I feel; very middle of the road, but not leaning either way.
– Force Grey: Lost City of Omu (season 2). I totally recommend this show to anyone wanting to get into D&D but need bite sized chunks before Critical Role. It it so funny and has celebs (this season has Deborah Ann Woll, Dylan Sprouse, Brian Posehn, Joe Manganiello, and Utkarsh Ambudkar)! Season 1 was great, but this season is even better. The cool thing is this show is made for sampling new stories officially released. You can watch both seasons on Twitch right now.
– And the Mountains Echoed by Khaled Hosseini. Okay, I got through all of Hosseini’s books, for now. Phew, I survived! This was my least favorite of his works as it didn’t hit me as hard as the other two; my connection to the characters was scattered due to the jumps, really. I had some difficulty following along or caring. That is, until the last chapter, where my eyes started leaking and the floodgates opened once again. Still, while the novel remained stark, dreary, and depressing, it didn’t have a hold over me like A Thousand Splendid Suns did. But that’s okay, still great.
– Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu. I enjoyed the pieces in this book, I read one almost every day and it gave me some new wisdom to ponder throughout the day. A lot of it was good, but I felt like I have already reached that level of consciousness. A lot of it was sexist and archaic and Eastern, which is good to take with a grain of salt; as long as I realize it is so, then I can understand it. The copy pictured below is the one I read and it had nice commentary at the end of each piece/poem.
– Kids in Love by Kygo. I was surprised because Kygo just released an EP, but then I remembered that DJs release whenever they want. This album is great! I’m glad I’m still really into Kygo’s vibes because he’s been one of my faves for a while.
– Red Pill Blues by Maroon 5. I hadn’t really been following M5 for a while, but I still hold on for the chance at another Songs About Jane. Turns out this album is pretty great and reminiscent of their old stuff with modern pop stuff mixed in! The features are awesome (shoutout to SZA) and there are actually a lot of mellow vibes here too. Per the album cover, I hadn’t noticed, but looks like M5 is now M7.
a581c79e3201364cb5f11f3bd1b5f161-1000x1000x1– What If Nothing by WALK THE MOON. Also surprised by this release because I guess I hadn’t been following any of my faves. Definitely enjoyed this album, because I can’t remember anything from their last one. I don’t think anything will ever be like their first album, but that’s expected. I still love them.
– Escape from L.A. by DANakaDAN. Randomly started listening to this artist because of the Wong Fu + Dia Frampton collab with Run. His rhymes are really fast and I definitely need to listen more to get the nuances, because I’m pretty sure everything’s really clever. I love discovering and supporting Asian American artists!


The List 2k17

•5 November 2017 • Leave a Comment

Every time I get anxious and angsty about life, feeling that ennui, that existential crisis creeping ever nearer, that nihilism, that weltschmerz…I make lists! I rearrange my goals, I organize the trillion thoughts zooming around my mind, and I get a clear picture of what I want to do. And it’s like the darkness is defeated, the unbearable heaviness of being is quelled, at least momentarily.

  1. Health
    1. Cook vegan dinners
    2. Meet fitness goals
    3. Increase sustainable living
  2. Independence
    1. Apply to Master’s
    2. Budget, pay bills
    3. Move out
  3. Connection
    1. Be proactive with friends
    2. Make new friends
    3. Date more
    4. Do things alone and meet others
      1. SCUBA
      2. D&D
      3. Game nights
      4. Movies
      5. Concert
      6. Travel
  4.  Experience
    1. Plan vacations and travel
    2. Find volunteer/charity
    3. Solo hobbies
      1. ASL
      2. edX
      3. Make board game
      4. Write book
      5. Art = digital art
      6. Cosplay

1.1) I actually don’t plan on starting this until January, since I’m still doing desserts for 2k17. But the main goal of this, since I’ve now convinced myself that vegan can be healthy, hearty, and delicious, is to begin to substitute my meat dinners with vegan dinners (and hopefully, share with my parents too in order to reduce their meat intake as well). The side effect of this will be allowing me to experiment in the kitchen and have fun with recipes. Downstream, I’d hopefully be able to get the “Wow, this is vegan?! But it’s so delicious, send me the recipe!” from friends and family.

1.2) This is more or less ongoing forever, but I’d like to just get back into a routine. I also found out that a lot of PR numbers are 1 rep maxes, which I didn’t know. All my PRs are based on 3 sets x 5 reps, and maybe that’s why my numbers are so “low”!

1.3) Every time I need to buy something new, I think to myself, “what can I do to make this more sustainable, vegan, eco-friendly, zero waste?” And from there, the fun begins to find alternatives. I’ve been doing pretty well so far, and I think I’ve drastically reduced my waste and footprint. However, there are still myriad instances in daily life that I can hopefully, one day, fix. Another big thing with this is navigating the world and getting people to do the same as me without having to beat them over the head with “ideology”. I mean, the crazy thing is that it’s not even difficult…it’s just different, and this is the minor inconvenience that people will not change for. But I believe in fighting the good fight for the planet’s sake!

2.1) This is always in the back of my mind and I’ll get to this in 2018!

2.2) So I’m turning 26 soon and so it begins. The real adulting. The late 20s. I will be buying a new phone finally (hopefully), and I’m hoping my parents will let me pay my phone bill (I know, weird, right?). And then I have to get health insurance and I guess I might as well pay for my car insurance. And then I was thinking I should start paying my parents rent/utilities, just to see if I can actually afford to move out and budget and be an adult. I know, I’m so spoiled!

2.3) This is not really a priority, but as above, it’s something that I’m always thinking about. I just don’t know when will be the smartest time to do so. I was having major anxiety because my parents want to move and I don’t, but I can’t afford to live in this city, so would I move with them? Or would I just move out to my own place? Can I afford it? And then I have to think about living with other people. Either stranger or friend, it’s an inconvenience. It’s a whole thing, but I don’t know if I can live with others. But then would I just live alone? Then I’d be a complete hermit forever. But then if I do move out, I can finally get a dog and turn my home completely zero waste!

3.1) I’ve had recent epiphanies about friendships and especially relationships going into late 20s and beyond. Like it’s so hard to make friends that you connect with [deeply] or friends that are not problematic. At this age, I don’t have time or energy to put up with [new] people who don’t vibe with my values. So I want to try and foster my current relationships, but I just always feel so antisocial and, not to mention: everyone’s in a relationship these days.

3.2) But I still want to broaden my horizons and meet new people from different walks of life that can teach me new things.

3.3) And again, I guess I should date more, even though I’m so finicky…after dates, I always just want to be alone and have some me-time. Relationships are fun, but sometimes inconvenient. And this is why I’ll be single 5ever.

3.4) I want to start doing things alone as well. First, I just want to be comfortable doing non-solo activities solo. Second, it could force me to meet people and put me in situations where I’ll need to socialize. I think I’m pretty good at making friends (that INFJ chameleon act, though), it’s just whether or not I have the energy to want to try (spoiler alert: I rarely do).

4.1) Obviously, this is something that will be on my list forever. I want to always be planning something, even if I don’t have any prospects of doing it soon. It’s exciting to plan!

4.2) I made a list of the world’s problems that I would like to fix. And in no way is it comprehensive and that irks me, so it’ll be ever evolving. I’ve been wanting to volunteer, but can’t find anything meaningful for people who don’t have the experience in specific fields. And I want to do something more meaningful than say, package boxes with goodies for an event. I’m still on the search for the right charities to get involved in as well.

4.3) As always, I’ll be working on some solo hobbies. I’m most excited to start digital art once I get a drawing pad.


The Weltschmerz

•3 November 2017 • Leave a Comment

Adventure Catalog

– I finally finished my Wonder Woman art piece! It was super fun and I was excited to try new things. I’m not sure what really inspired me to do a shadowbox, but I knew I wanted to try something different. I tend toward my staple of pencil, but I always like to add new things- this time, Prismacolors and comic art. I’m pretty happy with how it turned out too!

– With that done, I can change gears into other creative outlets. I’m definitely still going to design a board game and write a novel (I have a working idea that not’s some generic fantasy!). I also think I want to get into digital art (easy for erasing mess-ups).
– I am so excited because my top vacation priority is finally happening, as my sister and I are planning a New Zealand + Australia trip. It’s a lot less nebulous and way more concrete now. I think I always want to be planning the next trip because it’s so exciting.
– No plans for Halloween weekend, which is a change from normal with generally so much going on. I’m not sure why, but I haven’t felt in the Halloween spirit this year…but I did love seeing everyone’s creative costumes. Over the weekend, I did get to see some great people visiting from out of state (who also reminded me I haven’t been to Portland in so long):

Dinner without my sister lolol

– Thanks to Lo, ya boi is coming back for San Diego Comic-Con 2018! And since registration was so early this year, I can start planning my cosplay ahead of time. I have an ongoing list, though I’m not sure which I want to prioritize or execute first. I’m always drawn to the simpler ones, but since I have more time, I might do a more complex one this year.

Health Catalog

– I love when I affect other people in subtle ways to be better. Hanna told me she’s more aware of her plastic use because I always nag/judge her. My mom bought some reusable plates that we can use for our larger dinner parties (instead of all the waste that paper plates create); yes, they’re plastic, but it is a step up because we’re reusing them (in the same vein as the plastic Tupperware we have). She also bought some other Tupperware for storing things in the fridge (we use a lot of plastic wrap in this house, but hopefully we can drastically reduce that). She said she bought them because of me!

Life Reflected

– I’m having that itch again- you know the one where you feel like there’s so many things to do and experience and it’s an overwhelming thought that you don’t have enough time? I want to do everything and I want to do nothing…
– I’m actually caught up on my shows and I feel some strange sort of anxiety, like there’s not gonna be constant background noise while I’m doing something else. I know, it’s a weird thought, but I think this might be a good thing, so I can explore other avenues for my brain’s energy. I should probably stop “multi-tasking” anyway.
– I’m also in a weird mood emotionally lately. Maybe it’s the Fall weather beginning, or maybe it’s that there’s so much horrible things in this world and I can’t handle it. Could be either, who knows?
– Let this be a reminder to myself to branch out of my comfort zone. I think I need to make some new friends with converging/similar interests as me. Seems so impossible. But also, I have to go through that whole vetting process of “Are you (at least a little) woke and do you have the same values as me? Because if not, I can’t deal with you”. And also, I kind of just want to do things alone and be anti-social and/or independent. What a fucking paradox.
– To expand on this: I’d like to try and do activities by myself. I gravitate towards hobbies that are more independent, but what about hobbies that are “normally” geared towards social settings? I kind of want to experiment with doing these things by myself too.

Signal Boost

– War for the Planet of the Apes. I always forget about this franchise until the next one comes and I get all excited because all the films are pretty great. Not to mention, I’m always down for movies about nature fucking with humans. Another great addition to the reboot, and rather heartbreaking, might I add.
– First They Killed My Father. What a powerful film, where I learned about more genocide of Asians and the Khmer Rouge. So well acted, so tragic, so beautifully done. It reminded me a lot about the stories my parents told me about Vietnam. It’s scary to realize how it puts things into perspective about how easy a life I’ve had. Things may be difficult, and I never want to invalidate my own experiences, but I know I’ve never experienced such horrible things. On Netflix.
– Meet the Robinsons. An underrated Disney film that they added to Netflix, so I had to rewatch. I’m not even a fan of time travel stuff, but I forgive it because this movie is so delightfully ridiculous. Little Wonders by Rob Thomas makes me tear up every time. Also, my mom randomly watching a single scene near the end of the movie: “If that’s his dad, why does he look like a child?”
– Critical Role chapter 8 (and first campaign as a whole). I discovered CR after I got into D&D a little over a year ago now. This show only fueled my love and passion for this game. I only seriously started watching around Chapter 6 (The Chroma Conclave story arc) and from there, I was hooked. The first campaign ended last month and like many Thursday nights for the past year, I was reduced to a blubbering puddle of snot and tears. I was excited for every Thursday night because of this show. I can’t believe how emotional, funny, and dramatic this show can be. These voice actors are amazing and their friendship/chemistry is inspiring (not to mention, I can just tell they’re all really good people). I’m really excited for next year when they create new characters! If you’ve wanted to jump in, the upcoming second campaign would be the perfect time!
– Stranger Things season 2. So much hype! I rewatched season 1 right before just to refresh myself (it’s so short!). Then I watched this season twice because I was half paying attention and fell asleep the first time. Everyone posting statuses like “While everyone was out partying over the weekend, I binge watched Stranger Things 2.” Okay, but you think you’re special? I’m antisocial and didn’t want to go out and have no friends either, bruh. Ahem, anyway. I found myself rather annoyed by all the kid characters (except precious Will), because they were so whiny and angsty (trust, I love some good preteen angst, but this was annoying (also, Billy is the most annoying character)). At least it got better towards the end; I think the final 2 episodes (especially the Snow Ball scene) redeemed everyone. The season was great for character development (Nancy and Steve are so much better, but not together), but still lots of questions about the mythos. I’m glad they have a rough plan though (4 seasons). And always love the D&D references. On a final note, my nose had been bleeding that weekend (call me Twelve?!).
Dear White People season 1. I was skeptical about this show at first because the original movie wasn’t as great (read: hard-hitting) as I thought it’d be. As such, this show has been on my Netflix list for awhile without me touching it. Until now, where I don’t have anything else to watch. Luckily, this show is woke af and I greatly enjoyed this season and all the clapbacks. Also, anything that freaks out white people is hilarious (#whitetears). I do hope they go deeper in the next season.
– Big Mouth season 1. I was actually pretty excited about this series because I saw a random trailer for it about a month before it came out. And it was hilarious and disturbing and oh so relatable (I mean, it’s all about puberty, so duh). The VA is top notch as well (my favorite being Maya Rudolph as Connie, the Hormone Monstress), my little gyoza.
– One Punch Man season 1. This show has been on my Netflix list for a while now, and I’m so happy I watched it! It is clever, funny, depressing. That ennui is on point, though. The concept of this character is hilarious and intriguing. It’s sad that this came out in 2015 and we don’t know when Season 2 is out. I’m wondering, without spoiling myself with the manga, where they plan on going from here. Next cosplay, anyone?
– Bill Nye Saves the World season 1. Yet another Netflix show I’m finally getting to. Listen, I love Bill Nye, his children’s shows, his opinions and beliefs. And this show is…decent. Perhaps it is good for the average semi- or unwoke American to learn a few good things. However, a lot of it is just surface exploration, without getting into the heart of the matter. And I get it, this isn’t a documentary show, this is for a wide audience. I found certain episodes interesting, particularly the Sexuality and Population episodes (9 and 13, respectively), though everything else, I was already keen on. I didn’t like a lot of the song/dance segments and I found myself skipping them. A lot of the show, I would call cringe-worthy. However, I liked the correspondent segments (though what is Karlie Kloss doing there?) and the “I need a minute” segments. The panel segments were hit and miss and sometimes, downright awkward.
– Lost series. Since I had a lot of time, I decided to finally rewatch this show on Netflix. And thankfully, it did not disappoint. I think I was more emotionally attached the first time around, but something about binge-watching makes me realize I have to move on quicker than normal (no full week to process emotions). This show will always hold a special place in my heart, and I’m glad after this watching, I remembered just how much I love it.
– Grayson by Tom King and Tim Seeley (2014). I’m a fan of King ever since I read The Vision. Like the latter, the concept of this was intriguing, a complete change from what we expect from the character. Dick Grayson as a spy? Amazing. It was funny, clever, interesting, and so beautifully drawn. It was a short run and I enjoyed it for the most part.
– The Meaning of Life by Kelly Clarkson. I was dying in anticipation of this album. I could barely control myself. This is everything I ever wanted. It gave me life. The smooth soul that oozes from her voice in these songs is just…incomparable. Reminiscent of 90’s adult contemporary love songs mixed with R&B, blue-eyed soul. Favorite song immediately was “Would You Call That Love”, but naturally, every song KC sings is perfection. Why is there no deluxe edition? The only issue I have with this album is that it’s too short (14 songs, 44 mins). Expect me to be listening to this and Wrapped in Red for the rest of the year.